ugh

well. today is a hard day. I got my period and as is usual, i crave really bad foods when i'm menustrating... like. islands.. mmm...i'm trying to stop obsessing, but i'm boiling 1 chicken strip and chicken broth... hopefully that'll help me get through the day without cheating =(

i cheated.....

at WEIGHING IN early. NA na... thought i cheated on the diet didntcha...



i've lost 6lbs!!!! in 4 days. WOW. that is insane...

i conquered MOVIE TEMPTATION!!!

went to see forgetting sarah marshall & didn't even flinch at no popcorn, no apple sausage baguette... etc..

YAHA ME!

Optifast - Day 4 - Week 1

10:30AM update:

So far so good. My energy levels go up and down, i feel perpetually full, and i haven't *really* been tempted.

what surprises me is how easy it is to stick to. I thought for sure that i'd be pining for food every minute of every day, but not only haven't i, but this has almost been somewhat of a relief. the obsessing over food, the worrying about it, the looking forward to it, has all disappeared.

Dare i use the word... liberating???
Not to mention the amount of time i save not cooking, or finding lunch (like i'm a scavenger...)

It's kinda exciting!

9:PM -

oh man, i started early today, shake early, ended at 7PM, so needless to say i'm a bit hungry and tired.

2 things, i started my period. JOY. Note the sarcasm. and we're going to a movie = TEMPTATION TEMPTATION TEMPTATION....

Optifast - Day 3 - Week 1

Same old Same old, woke up easy as pie this morning, even though my fiance came home at 4AM, i didn't realize it and went into a panic that he got into a car accident.. ya know, you wake up from a bad dream, and convince yourself something horrible has happened... it's not only me that does that is it? ....is it?

It's about 3PM, it's my first day venturing out of my house while on this diet. Temptation is at every turn, someone brought in donuts and bagels. assholes. in any case, i was able to power through it, which btw, NEVER happens...

SO not much to report as of 3, except that i feel great, again with the dizzy, but lotsa energy!!!

Ok, 10PM report - i'm shocked i always feel full. wiiierrd, i better be losing weight >=o

GOALS

do i REALLY look like that now? blech.

Optifast - Day 2 - Week 1

Woke up this morning with no problem. No grogginess like normal, but i think this has to do with the appetite suppressant yesterday.

10:AM
Chocolate Shake & Bottle of Water. joy. >=o
Wellness Scale: No headache when i woke, i don't feel hungry (ODDLY) but kinda light headed.

1PM
Choco Shake & Bottle of Water. i think i'm getting sick of these!!!
Wellness Scale: NO HEADACHE!! yahoo! I took a B12 sublingual & good gravy, i feel like i could climb everest!!

4PM
Choco Shake & Bottle of water. blech. had some broth, yummmmy
Wellness Scale: I feel GREAT. i'm shocked, i'm not hungry, i'm not full, but i have energy. the only time i want other food is if i see a commercial for something yummy...

7ish - watched a cake challenge on food network. WHY LORD WHY... so i had some clear chicken broth to stave off a need to taste something yummyyyy..
Wellness Scale: It's scary HOW energetic i feel, maybe the B12 supplement, but WOO HOO! i thought for sure i would feel waning and weak, as i have with most other diets, but not at all. Completely the opposite really. I am sometimes lightheaded when i exert allot of energy, but for the most part i feel great...

I'm trying really hard not to step on a scale this week, it makes me obsess, so i'm going to stop until it's time for the Drs appt, but so far so good....

Optifast - Day 1 - Week 1

Well, i recently got engaged and I decided it was finally time to do something about my weight! my annoying, hanging on, spilling over my jeans weight. So i did my research, and decided that Optifast might be a good alternative for me.

A couple reasons i chose Optifast -

• I thought that having my meals predestined would get me to stop obsessing about what to eat.
• I liked the idea of being Doctor monitored on a weekly basis. nothing more motivating than having to own up to your scale 1ce a week and have someone monitoring you.
• The cost, albeit not cheap, was about how much i spent eating out every week.
• Results for people seem to be kinda amazing.
• I liked the idea of having to put myself through something challenging, makes it more fun for me =)

I won't lie, i basically get to have 4 shakes a day, the size of a Hi-C juice box, and not quite as tasty, and that's a little daunting. On top of the shakes i get to have 2 other types of food. i chose pudding & granola bars.

So i woke up this morning, and i raised my weary head... was VERY leary of trying it, but excited at the same time.

10:30 AM
So, popped open my first one, a chocolate shake, nice and cold. I had read all these reviews about the shakes tasting yucky.... but REALLY not true! it was totally fine, not bad *at all*.
so i sipped it like it was a meal, drank 16oz of water with it.
Wellbeing Scale: Nervous but felt fine.
Energy: i'm never energetic in the AM.

1:30PM
Time for my second shake, this time Strawberry. Not bad again, tastes like a melted mcdonalds shake =) so far so good.
Wellbeing Scale: Wondered if i'd notice any difference. No hunger pangs, which shocked me.
Energy: Felt fine!

4:30PM
Time for Shake #3, Vanilla. er, i think i'll stick with Chocolate and Strawberry please.
Wellbeing Scale: Feeling kinda tingly actually, don't know if it was the appetite suppressant, or the lack of food.
Energy: Waning.

7:30PM
Time for Shake #4, we're back to chocolate, i think it's my favorite....
Wellbeing Scale: Have a pretty bad headache, feel very tingly. Took a hot shower and laid down for awhile, thank god i had the day off of work to acclimate.
Energy: i'm definitely crashing a bit... my head feels like a lead weight on my shoulders =(

*************btw, my FURY is rising. Clinton won in PA. LAME. **************

9:PM
well, I tasted the pudding. um, it tastes kinda like well, i dunno, but not good. so i trashed that, ate a granola bar instead(the optifast granola bars) that was pretty good and felt substantial (relatively obviously). & had 1 cup, 10 calories worth, of clear chicken broth with pepper.
Wellbeing Scale: My headache at this point is unbearable. i'm going to take some Trazadone and go to BED.
Energy: NONE.


Well Day 1 started OK, and i'm NOT sure if the headache is due to the appetite suppressant. tomorrow i'll try and get through the day without the appetite suppressant & see if that helps. I don't think i can take many more headaches like that in my life! .